To You,

You will never come across this blog of mine.

I'm taking a step back from your life from now onwards. It's not that I want to, but i HAVE to do it. Ever since the day that you accidentally blurt out something that you supposingly wanted to say it to me when the time is right, you have been treating me differently as your friend.

Ma right eye have been blinking non-stop last few weeks. Some people said that someone far is missing me, I'll be crying a lot, etc. Somehow, it's true. Because of you and your decision, I've been crying every single night. I didn't want all this to happen. Didn't expect things to turn out this way. I've been waiting patiently for you to come back to Singapore and this is what I get in return. But why must it be now? Why didn't you said it before you went out of Singapore?

After that day, I've seen that I'm the one who's taking the initiative to either sms/call you almost every single day. You didn't. Must I be the one taking the first step? Sometimes I wonder, am I asking from you too much?

Haiz. If this is what you want so much, I would fulfill your wants. If this is what you think the best for you and especially me, I will do it even if ma heart say don't.

"The first time that I saw you was in the MRT. I was on ma way to school and you were on your way back to your camp early in the morning. We were sittting and facing each other. You smile at me, but I didn't. I gave you one kinda of look. You thought I was arrogant, but I'm not. The next few days, you came across ma friendster profile. That's when we started becoming friends. I've met you a few times before you went off. You've asked me to promise you not to quit school and not to be a rough girl. I've kept ma promises till you came back. In this end, this happened."